I am not going to look too nice. Im peeling. and im ugly, my hair is gross and thin and it is going to be up. if anybody can get it up. and im fat, fat fat fat. and according to everyone, i got no tan. and my social standing sucks, thanks tomo. maybe i really dont have friends. i screwed up my only one. him. my only one friend is an asshole. and it pains me to see all these happy people. oh so happy. writing things in other peoples yearbooks. and i got maybe one heartfelt, it makes me feel totally detatched. like i should never have been here. i dont belong. like what am i doing with these people, they have known eachother much longer, they care so much more about eachother. i am just an object, i do not matter so much. i see max writing all these cute things. i wish i got one, but i guess i don’t deserve it.  michael was writing many nice things to people. and i got something nasty. like he doesnt care at all. he doesnt care. i was wondering, is that the sort of relationship we have? no, it isnt. its not fair, why cant i get just one thing sweet from him ever? and andy. i waited a fulll year for this one day. i was looking forward to it so much. and i got, hags, you rock. im glad we met and we are friends. that is what i have been waiting for. and from hagan i got ballz. bella got something. jenna got something, but they are better than me and mean more to him. and hannah wrote me something sweet i could not read. so i dont actually know how sweet it was. but nothing i have read has made me cry. made me think, wow ill miss this. make me think aobut what a wonderful friend that person was. the best thing i have in there is from danny. at least he is still the same. ah i miss that.so i am very dissapointed, this was not my year. it was not like i imagined. everybody gets diffrent amounts of love it is stupid. unfair. i am dissapointed, tomo is right. my friends are no friends at all.